Someday you write about respecting the process. The next day you work towards reaching a goal you really need to happen, but it ended up being simply not doable in this short period of time. Talk about not respecting the process. Everything has its time and you can not force. You can try to push harder, but the process will not allow it. Once that conclusion was reached, the text said; mission impossible, blown off. Time for a resting night, picking up pieces, re-strategize the plan. You can learn every day eh?